My everyday random thoughts and ideas that I don't want to post as my facebook status ;)
I'm also trying to find a place to release my everyday stresses and complaints.
This summer has been quite interesting. Interesting in a sense that the true colors of people, or maybe it was just me being blindsided by what I thought I wanted, so I never saw it, finally showed itself. And it set me free. I couldn’t have asked for a better ending to that brief chapter in my life.
What I have now…it feels so natural; nothing seems forced; there’s a mutual connection; and the best part, I’m ready. This is comfortable and amazing at the same time, and everything just seems to fit.
Am I worried that this all happened so quickly? Truthfully, yes. At times. But what I did, and I’ve always told myself to do, is just take the leap. Sometimes our best decisions and our best mistakes are made by just diving in. Yeah it’s scary. Yeah it’s unknown. But damn, where I am right now, where WE are right now, it’s unbelievably real, that sometimes I can’t believe it’s actually happening. That one day I’ll wake up and it was just a dream.
I turned 31 this summer. When I turned 30 I made a list of things that I wanted to accomplish while I was 30…and although I fulfilled some of the things on my list, a lot of them were left unattained. And that’s okay. Because what I’ve come to realize is that I don’t need to make a list to accomplish within a year of my life, I just need a list; a list of things that I want out of life. Will I ever be able to fulfill everything from the list, probably not, but it’s worth the adventures I will have while trying to attain everything.
This summer, I felt the true meaning of sisterhood in someone who I’m not related to. Roommate bonding was in full effect this summer and it made me happy. Not so much happy in that I’ll see her again, like next summer, but still, so blessed to be able to spend my summers with her.
Anyway, I’m starting to think too hard about what to write, which means it’s time to stop writing.
Ready for what’s ahead.
Friday was my last day of the 2013-2014 school year. It was a minimum day which means we got the kids at 12:05p instead of 2:10p. Over all the day wasn’t too bad though. The first half went relatively fast and the second half was spent cleaning. It was a bitter sweet day.
I’m second guessing whether or not I will be back next school year. I feel like I’m ready for more. I’m good at my job I just wish I got more recognition for it.
Anyway…this summer. I don’t have camp. I do have GSA, but a week shorter. I’m hoping to work at another place somewhere. I might even be back for another year at my school til I find what I’m actually looking for.
I guess nothing is what it seems. Perceptions can be altered if you really know how. I’m trying to move forward. Let go. And just fucking live life. Is that so much to ask?
Lots of crazies out there though. Lol praying to find good people ☺
Got the HTC One m8 this past week and it’s been…well, pretty distracting lol.
I’ve had an iPhone for more than 5 years, so the switch over to Android has been interesting.
Trying to stay social and up to date with trends and the media, but I’m just worried I’ll get burnt out by it all in the end. Hopefully not though.
Just trying to live life in the present and plan for the future. It’s that so much to ask??
Life is a journey (and an adventure) if you allow it to be. The people you encounter and make an imprint in your life were meant to be there at that time and place. Nothing is forever, so make the most of the time you have with them.
Trying to live by this motto. Cause tomorrow is not promised.